SweetCurry

This journal is only archive from now on. All the journal keeping will happen at http://emmelemzi.livejournal.com so please add that if you like to read about my ah-so-interesting life.
And remember to comment on the friends only post in that journal.
Thank you.

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Tämä päiväkirja tulee olemaan vain ja ainoastaan arkisto tästä päivästä lähtien. Kaikki päiväkirjaan kirjoittaminen tulee tapahtumaan tässä osoitteessa: http://emmelemzi.livejournal.com niin että lisää se jos haluat jatkaa lukemista minun niin kiinnostavasta elämästä.
Ja muista kommentoida friends only-postia siinä päiväkirjassa.
Kiitos.

Narmolta otin. Koska tällaiset ovat niin kivoja.

Kerro mielipiteesi minusta anonyymisti ja kirjakielellä, ilman hymiöitä.

Tahtoisitko kysyä minulta jotakin, muttet ole kehdannut tai uskaltanut? Haluaisitko sanoa minulle jotain, mutta pelkäät reaktiotani? Nyt voit esittää kysymyksen tai kertoa mitä tahansa minulle, nimettömänä! Ja minun on vastattava jokaiseen kysymykseen.

Kokeillaan. ehkä teillä on kysymyksiä tai muuta. kertokaa ja kysykää. vastaan kyllä sitten ihan friends only puolella. tai se riippuu ihan kysymyksestä ja niin edespäin. :) Kiitos jo etukäteen.

I want everyone's honest opinion of me - please post an anonymous comment to this entry. Try to be as honest as you can, I'd appreciate that. Thanks.

Okay all of you who want to stay on my friendslist on this LJ comment here. I will take away everyone else. You who speak english should friend : http://cage-girl.livejournal.com/ instead of this one. Because this will be only in finnish from now on. 

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Siis kaikki jotka haluatte pysyä friendslistissä saatte kommentoida tähän entryyn. Kaikki muut otan pois. 

Teillä on kuukausi aikaa. 11.11. 2007.

Okay. All you guys can forget about the english LJ. I will start writing english here again because it will make my life a bit easier. A lot easier if I may tell the truth.

It will still be Friends Only. So you all need to friend me first to read. Sorry guys.

Thank you.

I created a new journal that will be written in english. This one will just be in finnish! All of you who want to read the english one join me at: http://cage-girl.livejournal.com/

Okay and now something in english. Just for the hell of it and because I am so bored that I made a new blog for myself. No it isn't like number 100. No it is. I just love having a lot to write in and I am a comment whore.

I need to get really popular over the internet because I will never get all pop IRL. So I try all the ways I can. And I do everything I can. Smart, ey? 8D

And now my legs are hurting really bad and I can not figure out why. ;_; it is very sad. And I really wanna cry over it. It hurts so bad! I am not growing so it can't be that. This sucks.

My life is a bit upside down right now. But it is getting better all the time. yay. And Q is soon in Finland again. I am really happy about that for some reason. And I have never even met her IRL.
I miss her. She hasn't been on msn in awhile and it makes me miss her a lot.

Gah.

I'm sad. Hug me.

"Writing comes easy. All you have to do is stare at a piece of paper until your forehead bleeds."
- Douglas Adams

I'm home again after a weekend at my best friends house.
It was a lot of fun but it's really really awesome to be home again. Mostly because I got really tired of being social all the time. Like every moment.

Too much for me.

I need to be alone once and awhile.

That's just me.

My birthday is soon! Like really soon!
I'm getting old!


PANIC!

Once again this has been a sit-at-home day. I don't know if that is good or bad or whatever. Feel a bit weird once again and I don't know.

No one calls me anymore. Well just Jezpa and today a teacher from school. But no one of my other friends call me. WHY? CALL ME PEOPLE! You do not have to have anything important to say. Just talk about anything! I really want to learn to talk to people again but how can I if no one helps me?

I know that I don't call anyone, yet, but it will happen. But it will take some time. And it wont happen without help.

Help me.

Please.

I have been sitting infront of the tv all day. Been alone all day too and totally ignoring the phone when it has been ringing. I really don't feel like being social or talking to anyone on the phone. I just wanna be alone.

Now tv again.

Olen lisäämässä kaikki Lafilaiset ystäviksi eli älkää pelästykö.

Olen Chikara.

I'm sitting in school. I feel pretty fine and happy. Pretty okay. No big issues right now. It's cool. I feel like being very social but have no one to really be social with. Or yes and no.

God, I feel like sending someone a textmessage or something. For some weird reason.

We're going minigolfing soon and I don't feel like it at all. I don't want to. And I wont. I will just sit or stand and watch as the others play. Yes that will do fine.

wohoo.

Now I am really thinking about what it would be like to live alone somewhere. Without my mother. Without all of my friends. Just being able to see them on the weekends. That would be very weird, but fun at the same time. To live in a city where no one knows you. A new start.

A new start.

That is what I have been wanting for so long.

My hopes are getting to high. Fuck.

Now I again feel ready for all the school stuff and even the moving from home. Nothing is really keeping me here except for mothers safety, but I will have to move away some day anyhow so why not. If I get accepted to the school.
My teacher liked some of my photos and thought they were really good. That made me feel very good inside and I got happy. That means that I have something to work for. I have a talent inside of me. (something more then just writing.)

Now I have seen PotC 3 and I liked it very much. I love movies. Movies make me think about stuff, which can be good and bad at the same time. This time it's more bad then good, maybe. And yes, thinking can be bad at times. Believe me.

I think too much.

Q is sweet. She keeps on listening to me and trying to help me. I really am grateful. THANK YOU.

I will have to talk to one of my teachers tomorrow. This is not working right now. It's too much for me and I can not handle it right now. Maybe someday but now I really just want to take it easy and not have to stress over something.
I can not move from home. It's impossible right now. I am not ready yet.

I feel weird.

Everything is broken. I'm in pieces and I hate it. I cried in the bus on the way to Iittala. It was bad and good at the same time. It had to come out at some point and it did. I can't say that I'm happy that I cried, but it made me feel a bit better.
Still in many pieces. Can someone come and put me together again?

I would really want to be somewhere else right now. Not sit here and see his nick online on msn and not being able to talk with him.
He doesn't care.

Well I had a good time in Iittala. It was fun. I laughed. And hearing someone play "Week end" on the guitar is a wooow-experience.

Alcohol sucks. And I'm never going to Highlight again.

I want to Sweden.